Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Checking my heart

Life goes on, things happen. Some mundane, some shocking, all in the course of life. Easy enough to say, a lot harder to live, especially when those shocking events are so often a part of life for the trans community. It is a reality in my world, that even though life is a generally positive place for me, every time I step through my front door could be my last. That is the reality of living in a community that still has a body count.

Last Thursday, Chrissy Lee Polis was brutalized at a Baltimore McDonalds for nothing more than being herself. I will save the details, by now all know or can readily find them. What I wish to discuss is the effect that has on me, and everyone else in the trans community.

I was out and about tonight, typical Monday. At one point I stopped off for a soda at my Local gas station. I car with two males in it drove up, stopped and they both very dramatically started pointing and laughing. At that moment, my mind still lost in Baltimore, I wanted to see blood. I know better than that, I am better than that, yet there it was. Almost an autonomous reaction to the helplessness of seeing a sister attacked on video, and being too far removed to possibly do anything. Something deep inside wanted to take it out on the first person who crossed me.

Somehow I doubt I am the only person to feel that rage right now. Even a quick glance of Facebook or the Blogs will show calls for vengeance. I cant help but understand that. But I also could not help but check my heart. There is no benefit in vengeance, nothing to be gained by lowering ourselves to the level of the animals who attack us. Self defense is one thing, malicious intent another, and in my own heart it did not sit well. I am better than this, as we all are.

Let us look forward to those areas where we can focus or energies to positive ends. Instead of cries for blood, let us scream for legal protection, for dignity, for unity. We cannot change what has occurred, we can use it to move forward our quest for civil rights. To this mission I will rededicate myself, and my heart is comforted by that.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Too Proud for Pride?

Yes, it is getting to be that time of year, Pride is upon us. Events are starting to pop up on Calenders and the trans-radical community is abuzz with indigent arguments against going. I could run a point by point here, maybe even paste some Facebook screen shots. But, this is the 250 word or less blog, so not happening. If you wish to see flaming rants, I suspect you know where to look.

However, the overwhelming theme against seems to have something to do with Gay Inc. casting us all aside. And yes, I get the history, I know there are some real issues in the past, and no doubt some now. But, it occurs to me that a person refusing to show up has no grounds to bitch about not being welcome. (Pardon me for being a bit grumpy, I am still a touch sunburned from Phoenix Pride last weekend.)

The trans community should be at Pride. In fact, we should be everywhere, every event, every time. Has the LGB cast us aside? I can't argue that in 250 words, and wont entirely argue against it anyways. But, assuming it is 100% true, then what better reason to show up in large numbers and claim what is as much ours as anyone's? As a dear friend of mine likes to say
"annoying and underfoot gets the job done."

Hmmm...Could we not apply that to lots of things beyond Pride? Maybe on a larger level? Just a thought.

Friday, April 15, 2011

I hate blogs, yet I am starting one

That would be ironic, except it isn't.

The truth is, I love the blog concept, but hate most blogs. There are two kinds of blogs that I find particularly distasteful:

1. Blogs that amount to little more than attention whores trying to make a name for themselves..

2. Blogs that often contain great information, but are owned by persons so interested in proving their own intellect that they cant order Chinese take out without using 7200 words.

To that end, I join the fray with a blog of a different sort. To wit, I will offer quick glimpses of those current news items and community issues I feel merit discussion. I will offer strong opinion, and I don't much care if you worship me for it or throw things at your screen. And I will be limiting all entries to 250 words or less, so I wont waste your time. My thoughts on this are simple.

First, I am quite capable of calling an idiot an idiot without resorting to vile vitriol, so why rant? Next, I believe information is best digested in short bursts. And really, this is a blog, it contains my views and opinions, even if you agree with them you don't want to waste forty five minutes of your life on each post.

So now that I have offended a majority of the bloggers out there, and likely half of my potential viewers, shall we get started?